I am feeling quiet. It is a noisy and bothersome quiet. I keep trying to speak, and I stop myself. I enter words and start updates over and again and then delete. When I do post, often after many mis-starts, the words are disjointed. They are easily misread or misinterpreted. Even I am not sure how they should best be read or how someone should respond.
Three weeks of this noisy, turbulent, exhausting silence. Having discovered the What Should I Read Next podcast, I have a book checked out from the library (raved about in two of the first three episodes). As this mental exhaustion and the weight of silence settles over me, I am tempted to retreat, to lie down and read. I am tempted to push away from my desk, and just lie down. Most likely I would fall asleep.
The quiet rumbles around me, the crescendo of unarticulated thought crashing in my head.
I keep trying to release two podcasts that will help clear my air. At the same time, I toy with doing a new kind of show, a show that has no “me” in it. The more I get involved in the podcast community, the quieter I have become. (I am not sure anyone has noticed the missing shows, which compounds the noise in my head.)
A weekend and a week of Spring Break stretch ahead. It feels like there is opportunity in this week. (I will be working, but without the need to shepherd kids to school, I can work straight through in long cycles which shift the play of time in the day.)
But to use the time, I have to manage the quiet. I have to find my voice and a room in which to speak.
I have many tabs open in my browser at this moment, bits and pieces of show notes for shows that have been recorded and the fodder and nesting threads that are being held open for other shows. But in this quiet, all of these things continue to sit here, waiting.
Here is an unordered roundup of creative and philosophical wisdom and inspiration for your morning coffee (or evening glass) or simple weekend enjoyment:
- 100 Day Project (starts April 4) [I think I first saw mention of this from iHannah]
- iHannah’s Postcard Swap (sign up by 4/21/17)
- Fail Safe: Debbie Millman’s Advice on Courage and the Creative Life (on BrainPickings)
- The Making of a 21st-Century Illuminated Manuscript: Inside Debbie Millman’s Creative Process (on BrainPickings)
- Self Portrait as Your Traitor (by Debbie Millman)
- Look Both Ways: Illustrated Essays on the Intersection of Life and Design (by Debbie Millman)
- How to Design the Career of Your Dreams: Advice From Creative Genius Debbie Millman
- What Should I Read Next (podcast) –> current favorite #newtome #trypod
- Books mentions in episodes of ^^ that I have on hold because I have to see them:
- Me Before You (reading)
- The Art of Memoir
- Ready Player One: A Novel
- Four Seasons in Rome: On Twins, Insomnia, and the Biggest Funeral in the History of the World
- There are others, but I heard and noted these three today. I am halfway through Me Before You.
- Current foster: Mara. She was spayed yesterday and had 9 teeth pulled. She is supposedly being adopted today, and I am heartbroken. She is in my top three favorite, most special, forever beloved fosters that we have had. I love this one dearly.
- The 41 Best Resume Templates Ever (I hate that these have prices. Ignore that as you browser, but look at these and be inspired and amazed by the modern face of a resume!)
- I need to find an InDesign tutorial and translate my layout skills to InDesign in my off hours.
Thank you, again, to those of you in the Creativity Matters group at Facebook. Your support and the community we are creating, is invaluable and much appreciate.